Hello....Rock Bottom!

All my life, I have been a "Skinny Minnie".  I was born 4 lbs 9 oz. and stayed underweight until way after I was married.  I was totally okay with that. Then I had Nathan and stayed around 135 for a long, long time.  Then, I got pregnant with Sophie at 138 and stayed there until I was 6 months along and then the weight creeped up..and up....and up.  

I weighed myself on Monday (the 7th of May) and realized "HOLY CRAP!  I am 180 pounds!"

So, today marks the first day of the diet & exercise from hell.  

I like food.  I like to eat.  I know I eat more than I should and later than I should, but I like food.  I just am not good with portion sizes.  I used to like exercise.  Hell, I used to be a fitness instructor and personal trainer.  Well, technically,  I am still knowledgeable in these things, I just let my certifications lapse when I had Sophie.  I just don't do it anymore.  You know the deal:  I don't take the time to do it!  

Anyway, I kinda freaked last week and realized that it was time to do something.  Sure, I joined the Move More, Eat Well movement with Cathy Zielske at the beginning of the year, but I have fallen off the wagon.  I think I LOST the wagon, forget falling off!  Ha!   How could I let myself gain so much weight?!?!  I guess it is easy when you aren't paying attention and wear comfy clothes all the time.  Crap Happens.....

So, here I am, Cyn M, getting serious about this....again.....

Starting Weight as of today: 181 lbs.   Here we go again! Time to get to work!

Until Next Time,

SCRAP ON!
~Cyn~

MMEW 2012 - Measurements, 1 Thing

My Measurements were rough, but the 1 thing to focus on was easy!  Write down everything that I eat, no matter what it is and how bad it is.....That is the 1 thing I will focus on for January 2012.

~Cyn~

MMEW 2012 - January, My Story

We had to take body measurements and I posted about that here and also take a full-body shot.  Taking a self portrait is hard but seeing this picture was even harder!  I.feel.fat!!! Anyway, we also had to tell our story. Below, you will see my story which is the journaling at the top of the page above.  


Journaling: 

I was underweight for most of my life up until I met Ben in college, who later became my husband.  On our wedding day, September 18, 1999, I weighed 125 pounds and was in the best shape of my life.  I had begun working for Exclusively Women’s Fitness Centre in February 1999 and started instructing people on how to use the machines and teaching classes a year later. I then started personal training. I loved it.  EVERY minute of it.  We moved to Georgia from Canada in September 2002 and I wasn’t allowed to work due to the type of Visa I had.  So, I joined the gym and continued taking classes.  The problem with the classes down here, was that they weren’t all that challenging compared to what I was used to in Canada.  So, once I was able to work, I started to work for the gym. Then I found out that I was pregnant with Nathan.  I taught and trained my entire pregnancy.  August 16th, 2004, I went in for my C-Section and was 161 pounds. The weight fell off after Nathan arrived. 

Fast forward to 2009... I was 138 pounds and teaching aerobics at a new gym.   I found out that I was pregnant with Sophie.  At 6 months, my heart rate while I was teaching was at 220.  Not good for me or the baby and I had to stop teaching and exercising.  October 9 2009, I went in for my second C-Section, I weighed 173 pounds.  Again, the weight fell off. 

I didn't end up going back to teaching (cert. lapsed) and my husband was laid off 6 weeks after Sophie was born.  Everything fell by the wayside and I went into “survival mode” for our family.  Ben ended up getting a new job and we moved in November 2010, I still couldn't teach and we couldn’t “splurge” to allow me to take the courses needed to re-certify.  Add to that the fact that gym memberships cost money and you know what happened next.  I did nothing.

2011 rolls around, literally rolls…..  

The pounds are slowly creeping up and I don’t notice it until my clothes are tighter, I feel tired and sluggish all the time, my moods are all over the place and my body has changed dramatically. 

Enter 2012….my weight is now at 175, clothes don’t fit and it is time for me to start taking care of ME!!  So, here I am!!!

MMEW 2012 - 5 THINGS....

This particular page is about the 5 Things that you are good at.  I had to ask Ben what I should write.  I guess we are all taught to think about things we need to improve and focus on those.  Not boast about what we ARE actually good at.  So, this was hard to do.  Some of the things Ben shared with me were not something I want written down!  ;)  Gotta love him though!  ;)

Here is what I came up with after reading over some posts on the Skyline Sisterhood Forum and thank you cards that I have received over the last couple of months:

1. Organizing

2. Planning and Coordinating Retreats, Get Togethers, Trips, etc.

3. Enthusiasm and Encouragement

4. Taking pictures and scrapbooking them

5. Technically Savvy

MMEW 2012 Statement of Intention:

I have several intentions for 2012…

·          Walk 3 times per week to start, join a gym in March                                          

·          No eating after 7pm

·          Drink lots of water

·          Eat well, break the sugar habit

·          Record caloric intake

·          Try to give up pop (A&W Rootbeer is my weakness)

·          No alcohol intake AT ALL

·          Cook and eat at home as much as possible

·          Get in better shape to be able to teach classes again

I want:

·          To feel better and sleep better

·          Be able to wear my wedding rings comfortably again

·          Shed body fat and get back down to 140 lbs

·          Be able to run a 5K under a half hour

·          Get my certifications current so that I can start teaching/training again