Hello....Rock Bottom!

All my life, I have been a "Skinny Minnie".  I was born 4 lbs 9 oz. and stayed underweight until way after I was married.  I was totally okay with that. Then I had Nathan and stayed around 135 for a long, long time.  Then, I got pregnant with Sophie at 138 and stayed there until I was 6 months along and then the weight creeped up..and up....and up.  

I weighed myself on Monday (the 7th of May) and realized "HOLY CRAP!  I am 180 pounds!"

So, today marks the first day of the diet & exercise from hell.  

I like food.  I like to eat.  I know I eat more than I should and later than I should, but I like food.  I just am not good with portion sizes.  I used to like exercise.  Hell, I used to be a fitness instructor and personal trainer.  Well, technically,  I am still knowledgeable in these things, I just let my certifications lapse when I had Sophie.  I just don't do it anymore.  You know the deal:  I don't take the time to do it!  

Anyway, I kinda freaked last week and realized that it was time to do something.  Sure, I joined the Move More, Eat Well movement with Cathy Zielske at the beginning of the year, but I have fallen off the wagon.  I think I LOST the wagon, forget falling off!  Ha!   How could I let myself gain so much weight?!?!  I guess it is easy when you aren't paying attention and wear comfy clothes all the time.  Crap Happens.....

So, here I am, Cyn M, getting serious about this....again.....

Starting Weight as of today: 181 lbs.   Here we go again! Time to get to work!

Until Next Time,

SCRAP ON!
~Cyn~

BB King's Mom was a WISE woman!

A very good friend of mine posted this on her facebook status:

"When my mother was dying, she said, 'Always try and be kind and nice to people. And if you do that, somebody will always speak up for you.' And I've found that to be a fact. They really do." - BB King

All I can say is.....man does this ever go along with my post about SNARKASTIC people.....I am in total agreement with BB King's mother.

I try to treat people the way I would want to be treated. I also give others the benefit of the doubt when I hear the way they speak to people or act around people. I always think to myself "GRACE CYN....Have a little grace and remember that they may have "stuff" going on in their life that is causing them great pain." Sure, I have made mistakes, I am human. I am sure I have upset people - not knowingly or maliciously - in the past. I just try to have a little extra grace with people. God does with me.
~Cyn~

SNARKASTIC

A new word I have come up with for people who are snarky and sarcastic all-in-one! I am sick of people like this and I am fed up with the way they treat people. Why can't people just be nice? Why can't people accept others for who they are without making judgments and getting snarky and sarcastic when they tell the truth? I just don't get it.....

It's Soapbox Time....

I have a "VENT" about life...so, it's time I got on the soapbox. I promise not to be on it for too long, because I really don't enjoy ranting and raving, BUT here it goes....
I am sick of people assuming that because I am home all the time and that I am a SAHM that I do nothing all day. I hate that.

I got an email from a friend tonight that set me off and I have so much to say, but can't seem to put it out there into words.
The short and long of it is this....

She is an unhappy kind of person. If you have a problem, well hers is 10 to 100 times worse! She is always either upset with her hubby or frustrated with work. She wants to take time away for herself from her child and hubby but feels guilty. She just is the person that sees the glass as HALF EMPTY....you must know someone like that right? You have met someone like that before! I think we all have!

I am the usual HALF FULL kind of girl and happen to like the life I have. Could we use more money? Everyone could! Would I like to be working? Sure! It would help me with paying for this C-Section in October for sure and give us some breathing room! But I am home with my son and that, to me, is VERY important! I am the kind of person that CHOOSES to be happy with whatever situation I am put in. I CHOOSE HAPPINESS......

So, the reason for my vent....well, part of it is the assumptions people make about me being at home all day, another part is this girl is a very good friend of mine and I want her to smarten up and get some positivity already, and the last part is that people NEED to choose to be happy! Be happy with what you HAVE.

Why can't people choose to be happy?

Can they not be happy with what they have already?

Why can't people be positive?

STOP being a Negative Nelly!

I am sick and tired of hearing this stuff and I just wish for once that people would be HAPPY with WHAT THEY HAVE!

Happiness is a CHOICE! CHOOSE to be HAPPY ALREADY WILL YA?

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Okay....I am done. Thanks for listening!