I would plan these scrapbooking retreats for a bunch of ladies and then attend them. While there at the retreats around women who loved me, I would feel these feelings of dread and fear. These episodes would make my body shake, my bowels to empty and sleep to evade me. I would be a basket-case for 4 days while I was at these retreats and not have any way to chill out or calm myself. The fight or flight in me would have me wanting to leave the retreat I had planned to go home. I had no clue where they came from or why I was feeling that way.
Even my regular day to day life, was full of all sorts of anxiety and feelings of abandonment. I was living with my husband, our two children and 5 animals, but felt alone.
Little did I know, I was seeing and feeling my future....
Fear playing a huge role in that future.
But also, a great deal of inner-strength found within...strength I didn't realize I had.
It has been well over a year since my last scrapbooking retreat. It feels like a lifetime ago. I haven't touched a scrapbooking supply in almost two years because life has changed so much.
I will share more in the days to come.....
Until then,
~CM~
Image is from an etsy shop......
and Daddy got to see how much Sophie likes the park (especially the slide)....... 
I think we got it right this time! ;) Who knew that a simple little thing like a picnic at the park would make both Sophie and Nathan happy?!?!